Ahh... the Summer begins!

Finals finished for me on Saturday... yes, the Finite Math final was a good end to the semester (obviously my easiest). Since i decided to give Vet School one more shot, i hesitantly enrolled in the horrible class that is Organic Chem. for the summer term ah! So, this week and half of next, i will spend very intentionally... lots of rest, hangout time, snowbiz and such (the usual you know). I keep thinking, "Zach, you are crazy for trying this whole vet school thing/dream again." But it is just that... a dream, passion, my heart's desire, whatever you want to call it. I feel like i would be selling myself short if i didn't give it 110% just one more time. With this in mind, i know i have to continue to remember that He gives good gifts to His children. He wants us to chase our desires and dreams! He wants to see us succeed! Our minds, bodies, hearts, sooo complex... our wonderful maker has given us every tool we need to achieve our goals and desires. Its a neat little picture (or whatever you want to call it), He has given us this "earth suit" to use as we see fit... so, the equation is simple: If we are to be a reflection of our maker.. we are to GLORIFY Him in our goals, dreams, ambitions. This is such a simple concept but soo many times i let the lies of inadequacy, the fear of failure creep in and defeat me... cloud up the path He has set before me... including those dreams and passions. So, lately i've just been thinking about all this and trying to have a healthy mindset about this summer and Organic Chem. i love what Matt said one encounter late in the semester..."Think hard on the tuff things of the Lord." Its ok to do this.. or to have doubts! How many times do we just not understand Him or not have the eyes to see what He is doing in our lives? I have no idea how or why i even decided to retake this Chem class this summer and its a struggle to not already expect failure. But, i do know He is faithful and has a perfect reason and plan... its just a refining time... i just pray to be open to it! Thats all we can do... wake up everyday and claim that we are nothing without Him... we are a mess without His grace and love...in that, our faith builds and we surprisingly find ourselves at the center of His will!

So, this is the start of summer, spent all day yesterday throwing up and now, feeling better (thankfully) im enjoying some hangout time with the fam in B-Ham for my sister's Grad. School graduation.

Im just glad i can't confuse the Lord with all my questions and crazy ideas you know?

covered in mercy,
Zb