Behind the scenes with the Bensonator

Sunday, May 14, 2006

A Faithful Father...Tangible Promise & Voodie Baucham

"The B -I -B -L- E, yes that's the book for me... i stand upon on the Word of God the B -I -B -L- E" Im sure you remember this cheesy children's worship song growing up? If you don't, shame on ya! haha... with that said (and without making this a never ending post) the Lord decided to slap me around a bit and show His humorous side tonite all by watching 722 online. Apologetics was something i have never been too familiar with until tonite... or at least it found a new importance in my heart. Guest speaker Voodie Baucham (cool name i know) laid the truth on heavy in his talk titled "DaVinci Code Decoded." I never really knew the hype was sooo big about this upcoming movie about the DaVinci Code and now im just excited about it... not because of the premise it is based on and certainly not because of the bad theology it suggests but because its gonna get people talking just as Gibson's "Passion of the Christ" did. Baucham challenged me to really seek out why i believe what i believe and no, "Because its what i was raised on" or "because it works for me" are not adequate answers when someone asks us why we are Christians or why we believe in the Bible. This caught my attention because sometimes, one if not both of those responses are my answers (sadly) to random people who ask me about my faith. Little did i know what i was in for as i watched/listened to the sermon (as the Lord im sure, began to chuckle).

"A reliable collection of historical documents written down by eyewitnesses during the lifetime of other eyewitnesses that report supernatural events which took place in fulfillment of specific prophecies and claim to be divine rather than human in origin"

So, that was his response, good huh? He continued to preach out of 2nd Peter 1 as my heart began to latch onto what the Lord wanted to teach me in the midst of my confusing start to the summer of 2006. Needing direction, wanting something tangible just for a bit, some "“sign"” that I was doing the right thing, had been my fleshly heart's cry as you know when, it all clicked and I began to laugh. He softly said, "“Zach, its right there in those pages! Listen to what Voodie is saying! Just dig into it and you will find direction, peace, a deeper love for others, YOU WILL FIND LIFE IN ME THROUGH IT!” After all, it i’s my breath that spoke it into the minds and hearts of those prophets that faithfully recorded it as it was divinely place upon them. It's unfailing and something you can hold onto! How many times do we... I, need something to touch and feel that is of God? God IS tangible... but in a way our hearts (worldly sometimes) refuse to latch onto. I was floored at the thought of such an easy concept that became sooo real! I mean, I try to get in the word everyday but wow, what an encouraging freshness or perspective I guess my heart needed to revisit?

I'm reminded that God is not a God of confusion! Hmm, so good cause I sure am blinded and feel stupid sometimes because of my actions! Simple concept we all know but I needed to rethink or reattach my heart to…
Find life in the word when life around you is dark and full of
lies!


This world would have me believe

It knows what I need to see

But there's no hope to be found

In a world where I see only darkness around me

Your word will be a light to my path

To guide my way through this world

Your word will be a lamp to my feet

To guide my way through this world

This flame that lights up my way

Is strong enough to remain

When all around me is lost

I will trust in the truth that is sure and never changes


Your word will shine a light on my path

Your word will be a lamp to my feet


Amazed,
zb



Friday, May 12, 2006

Ahh... the Summer begins!

Finals finished for me on Saturday... yes, the Finite Math final was a good end to the semester (obviously my easiest). Since i decided to give Vet School one more shot, i hesitantly enrolled in the horrible class that is Organic Chem. for the summer term ah! So, this week and half of next, i will spend very intentionally... lots of rest, hangout time, snowbiz and such (the usual you know). I keep thinking, "Zach, you are crazy for trying this whole vet school thing/dream again." But it is just that... a dream, passion, my heart's desire, whatever you want to call it. I feel like i would be selling myself short if i didn't give it 110% just one more time. With this in mind, i know i have to continue to remember that He gives good gifts to His children. He wants us to chase our desires and dreams! He wants to see us succeed! Our minds, bodies, hearts, sooo complex... our wonderful maker has given us every tool we need to achieve our goals and desires. Its a neat little picture (or whatever you want to call it), He has given us this "earth suit" to use as we see fit... so, the equation is simple: If we are to be a reflection of our maker.. we are to GLORIFY Him in our goals, dreams, ambitions. This is such a simple concept but soo many times i let the lies of inadequacy, the fear of failure creep in and defeat me... cloud up the path He has set before me... including those dreams and passions. So, lately i've just been thinking about all this and trying to have a healthy mindset about this summer and Organic Chem. i love what Matt said one encounter late in the semester..."Think hard on the tuff things of the Lord." Its ok to do this.. or to have doubts! How many times do we just not understand Him or not have the eyes to see what He is doing in our lives? I have no idea how or why i even decided to retake this Chem class this summer and its a struggle to not already expect failure. But, i do know He is faithful and has a perfect reason and plan... its just a refining time... i just pray to be open to it! Thats all we can do... wake up everyday and claim that we are nothing without Him... we are a mess without His grace and love...in that, our faith builds and we surprisingly find ourselves at the center of His will!

So, this is the start of summer, spent all day yesterday throwing up and now, feeling better (thankfully) im enjoying some hangout time with the fam in B-Ham for my sister's Grad. School graduation.

Im just glad i can't confuse the Lord with all my questions and crazy ideas you know?

covered in mercy,
Zb