My first post in a million years !

My apologies for not posting more often... just haven't been feeling it lately you know? Don't really know what the Lord is teaching me in this time of "funk" ill call it. So much has happened since our fun time in Clearwater! The Lord is just reminding me that my relationship with Him is totally NOT based on my feelings. So many times, i let my feelings dictate my view of Father or my actions for that matter. At any rate, its so encouraging to know that even when my feelings tell me otherwise or Satan's lies bury me too deep to think i can get out, He endures. His love is eternal. He is unchanging and is not swayed by my "feelings." Just so many decisions that are "soo important" seem to be weighing on me. Summer plans, school plans etc. You know the drill and the drag that life can cause. Its hard to tell myself that He is so much bigger than it all, including my little "life crisis"(meant for that to be plural... don't know if i spelled that right, you get the point?), but PRAISE JESUS cause He is! Even when i don't feel like getting in the Word, praying for certain things or people, even personally, or simply if im in a bad mood, Jesus never gets tired of waiting on me to choose Him, so patient in His Love and mercy. So i boast in my condition Lord. A condition i will, for a short time, be a part of simply because we are of Adam, a fallen people in need of a Savior. I love that line in the Jason Upton song. I can boast in my condition because its right where He has me... seasons are for a reason, change brings about newness and fresh prospective, lessons learned. Trying to find Joy in attempting to apply what we've been learning at Encounter right? Lord help my unbelief and teach me to COMPLETELY see you as the only solution to the problem and the reason for breathing in everyday you give me.

This was me babbling, sorry! Just what's on my heart

Searching with determination and Joy,
ZEB